Do you ever think your life is pretty dull?
Getting Facebook updates of what your friends are out doing. Scrolling through Twitter and reading about strangers adventures. Opening the Instagram app to see amazing pics of the coolest places.
Then you ending up thinking “Wow, I’m boring”.
I go through phases of thinking this way. In fact, I’ve just came out of one, which is what inspired me to write this post.
Well, it’s the way I came out of the phase this time that inspired me. Usually I just get over it. I subconsciously stop thinking about what I’m doing and comparing myself and then it’s not a worry anymore.
This time, an alarm on my watch (that I can’t figure out how to turn off, help!!) which has been driving me mad, has actually made me think about my life in a positive way.
I know it sounds dumb as fuck. And it is, but I’m okay with that.
Let me explain.
My Casio watch is my favourite, simple accessory – I feel lost without it on my wrist. (Wow, that was deep for a watch). There’s a feature on it which lets you set an alarm and at some point I accidentally set it for 8:05pm.
Now, every day at 8:05pm without fail, the watch frantically beeps at me.
I just said it was driving me mad, which isn’t an exaggeration. Forget witches, for a while I was getting ready to burn the watch.
But then I started to get used to it. The noise still surprises me, but mainly because I instantly think, “Damn, it’s 5 past 8 already?”.
So in suddenly being made aware that I’ve reached this point in my day, I’ve been consciously taking note of what I’ve been doing every time my watch yells at me.
I’ve been shopping, cooking, walking Olive. Reading, out with friends, at a gig, watching Netflix. Even writing this blog post, how funny.
There’s some more things I’ve probably forgotten to mention, but the main point is that this alarm has made me realise that I do a lot more than I think I do.
Yes, I do spend some nights watching Netflix or absorbed in the social media bubble, but I’ve realised that’s nothing to be guilty about. I have quite a hectic life, everyone does nowadays, so if I want to snuggle up and watch a film sometimes, then I’m going to do it.
Fuck it if that’s “boring”.
Now I think this phase of feeling like I’m boring happens at the times when I’ve stopped for a minute. My life is actually pretty busy, so when I pause for a brief moment, I get all dramatic and feel like I never do anything, but that’s not the case.
It’s normal to feel insecure sometimes, especially with how “perfect” everyone seems on social media. To view our own lives in monochrome, and see everyone else’s as a rainbow. But even if something is black and white, that doesn’t mean it’s not interesting. I mean, look at this dress. It’s made of simple colours but that’s one crazy illusion of a pattern. And I guess that’s what life is like. We’re all just creating our own little patterns, that are all unique.
So just because I’m not doing what everyone else is doing doesn’t mean I’m doing anything wrong.
I’ll admit my life isn’t as exciting as most people’s insta stories, but whose is?
I’m happy with my occasionally drab life and that’s all that matters.
I should probably do a google search on how to turn the alarm off though…